Feeling vs. Promise

I have always been a rather...sensitive...person. Each of my feelings and emotions are vivid, strong, and can become controlling if I am not careful. As I have grown closer and closer to my Lord over the past several years, I have been so blessed to frequently feel His presence. Fear, sorrow, and whatever else the world brings seems to evaporate every time I close my eyes and focus on His nearness. Because I have felt His closeness and find such comfort in it, the few times when I am less aware of His presence are difficult for me. My first reaction is to search for unconfessed sin that may have caused a barrier between me and the King. I pray that He would show me anything that needs to be confessed. Doing this sometimes helps. Other times, I still feel like God is just not as close as I wish He was. I become fearful and discouraged. Overall, I am just "off." I make sure I am in The Word and plead with God to come close again. One day, I heard a speaker on Christian radio discuss my exact situation. He said that we must learn not to depend on emotion--it can change at any moment for any reason. Rather, we must go back to the promises we know are true--the promises that will never change! This is a lesson that I still struggle with at times. Yet, God is teaching me to let HIM completely be my God, rather than letting emotion be a god as well. Even when emotion might cloud how near God feels, I can always go back to His promise: "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." ~Hebrews 13:5~ How blessed we are to serve a King who desires to comfort us and hold us close to His heart! I could never thank Him enough.